I got a new place to stay and am in the process of decorating & furnishing it. What little I could save from my old house is covered in soot 2inches thick. It's difficult to remove & soul destroying even thinking of it. In the last 3weeks I have sank into a very deep depression. Like nothing I have ever known. Nightmares, restlessness, not being able to concentrate among other stuff. I am not coping.
I had money in my savings account so I'll manage to get the house ready very quickly. Once I realised I could afford it (it was VERY cheap) I went and bought a return flight to Malta with one of our budget airlines. I got very cheap accommodation as well for 7 nights starting 16th of this month. When I booked it, I was adamant I would be going.Now, I'm not so sure. I need a few days away from here I'm hoping it will make me feel better but when I mentioned it to a (rare) friend, they thought it was a stupid idea at this time I know my problems won't disappear. I know I'll have to come back and face them. But I feel like if I don't go and get some time away from it all I may well go insane. I just don't know if I should go or cancel it.
Wnat do you think I should do?