Babeebugg (babeebugg) wrote in thequestionclub,
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This is long 3 months ago my house burned down. My Mum's memory is so severe that she is in a care home. She can't hold a conversation well as her short term memory is so poor. (She always had memory issues but we think the fire has escalated it) Which breaks my heart itself. The council provided me with a homeless hostel where I stayed for 3months. I lost my cat, found him eventually but it was too late.  My best friend turned out to be be an insensitive cow. Now, I have news that my Uncle has cancer. I have very very little left. Never really had many friends, so I'm feelng very isolated. My dr has prescribed antidepressants & he is arranging for counselling for me.

I got a new place to stay and am in the process of decorating & furnishing it. What little I could save from my old house is covered in soot 2inches thick. It's difficult to remove & soul destroying even thinking of it. In the last 3weeks I have sank into a very deep depression. Like nothing I have ever known. Nightmares, restlessness, not being able to concentrate among other stuff. I am not coping.

I had money in my savings account so I'll manage to get the house ready very quickly. Once I realised I could afford it (it was VERY cheap) I went and bought a return flight to Malta with one of our budget airlines. I got very cheap accommodation as well for 7 nights starting 16th of this month. When I booked it, I was adamant I would be going.Now, I'm not so sure. I need a few days away from here I'm hoping it will make me feel better but when I mentioned it to a (rare) friend, they thought it was a stupid idea at this time I know my problems won't disappear. I know I'll have to come back and face them. But I feel like if I don't go and get some time away from it all I may well go insane. I just don't know if I should go or cancel it.


Wnat do you think I should do?

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