Now, seeing what lies beyond the Amish borders, would you go back? Pandora's box has been opened. Things to consider:
-you have no money, marketable skills or experience. Once your 'mad Amish money' runs out, you'll be homeless
-everybody you know is back at home. Friends, family. You'll never see them again, most likely. They'll not want you coming around if you've strayed from the faith and are not repentant
Remember, you're Amish. You don't have the upbringing you have now, so you have to put yourself in their shoes. You go from familiar, comfortable routine in a small town to unpredictable, strange, exciting but disorienting experiences in a space larger than you can imagine. So, would you go back?