"I think part of the reason I am attracted to (name) is because he is such a mess. I mean, the people I have loved in my life have never been easy to love. I am not used to normal. I'm used to disaster. I don't know, as messed up as he is, he's also sort of exciting, sort of a challenge. I am accustomed to working for love. .... I can see the person he could be, the person he almost is"