Ajar (__floozy__) wrote in thequestionclub,
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There's a boy i fell in love with when i was 18. I fell in love the first time we spoke. He understood me perfectly and to this day i have not had a friend with whom i felt more alive and as good (I'm 20 now). He also hurt me very much. After our first falling out, we came together again, only to have another falling out a month later. I miss him very much. The problem in the first place was his inability to be a friend to me. As soon as he sensed my dependence on him, he began to become cold. He's sort of a sociopath (undiagnosed, but he matches almost all of the character traits for this). His behavior was often allienating, and it was online that we had our most intimate conversations.

Last week i established a connection with him through netflix and i began emailing him music (for "fun" i guess - because it's been almost a year and i still think of him daily). And several hours ago he sent me a terse email, telling me he misses my "presence online and off." I responded flatly and coldly wishing him a happy new year and nothing else.

I miss him, but i don't think he has changed. In the past he refused to acknowledge the way i felt.

For those who've loved those who appeared to love them less, what do you suggest? Should i pursue him again, or think about him silently for another year?
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