do you ever feel like it hurts you more than helps you?
with all my anxiety, ADD, learning disabilities and just overall pessimistic nature, i feel like being as intelligent as i am only hurts me. overall, i'm driven by emotion, and my intelligence coupled with the fact that i believe the absolute worst, doesn't amount to a lot of positive conclusions in life. it's very easy for me to think through a situation, calculate it and come up with both best and worst case scenarios, then because of the way my brain is, believe the worst.
i've also come to a lot of very bad conclusions which, in the long run, helped me, but at the time really hurt me. i've always wished i could be a bit stupider and make the mistakes my peers make and have the fun that comes along with that, rather than realizing what's going to happen straight away and bailing to protect myself and miss out. i've always been right about the stuff in the end but i still kinda regret that i don't give myself the opportunity to have regrets.