We both have some mental afflictions. I have been in the process of recovering from bulimia after 6 years of embracing and nurturing the condition. My partner is addicted to self harm. The other day he began violently cutting himself in front of me in the succession of an extremely honest confession about my body image. The gist of it was I told him I find myself disgusting.
It was incredibly difficult to see him do this in front of me, and it almost feels like abuse that he would do such a thing in my presence. However, what triggered him was the statements about myself, and his sole reason for cutting himself was that he hates having to see a "beautiful person" think so lowly of herself. To me, it feels like he did it out of frustrated love, and yet the action terrified me to the core.
Would you consider him being abusive in cutting himself in front of me? Do you find it abusive of me to say I find myself disgusting to a person who loves me?
Thanks for any replies in advance; I've posted a few things prior to this and this group has always provided helpful feedback.