If you don't believe in god, what made you not believe?
ETA: I'm seventeen and have been in a baptist family my whole life. I've been forced to go to church every time the doors are open since I was a kid. I got 'saved' when I was seven. I'm very active in my youth group and a lot of my friends are Christians as well. However, in the past year I have grown up a lot. I seem to be different than most people my age and I spend most of my time reading and just thinking. At this point in my life it's hard for me to believe that there could be a 'God'. And...I just don't know..But every time I try to talk about it, people flip out because I'm supposed to be this great Christian role model. I can't take it any more. I need answers, without people looking down on me for asking them.