( j a d e d, c y n i c a l, p a r a n o id ) (darkemagick) wrote in thequestionclub,
( j a d e d, c y n i c a l, p a r a n o id )


Out of curiousity, I went with my friend to her church service today when she invited me. Felt really out of place, especially since I am an atheist and couldn't exactly bring myself to really participate in the songs and the prayers. But that's not the question, so let's move on.

What role does faith play in your life?

I belong to that group of people who think that religions and philosophies were created by men themselves as a way to find answers to their lives. That there actually isn't any real God except the ones that we imagine.

Needless to say, a lot of my friends are against my train of thought. I respect their way of thinking - one particular friend had told me before that she had personally felt the presence of God and that was why she converted to Christianity. The problem is... I am not her. And as much as I wish that I could have faith, I can't bring myself to believe in something that I have not felt personally.

The whole time I was there at the service, the pastor was emphasising on how, when he accepted Christ into his life, he finally felt at peace with himself and finally knew his meaning and purpose in life.

I don't know, the message he seemed to be telling me was that, accept God and you will be at peace with yourself. Your life will change. You will be happy and fulfilled because the life you have been leading right now is empty and devoid of spiritual meaning.

And I remember thinking to myself, No, I am actually quite happy the way I am. I have made my peace with myself long ago (eh, long story). I know why I am here, and who am I. And I wasn't thinking that just to contradict the pastor - I really felt that way.

Does that means I don't need faith? Or does that mean I am being ignorant?

What role does faith play in your life?
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