February 22nd, 2018

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I am dead inside...what should I do all weekend?

I have a ton of personal stuff going on that I can't fix and I'm running out of energy to deal with even basic things like taking the stairs instead of the elevator, or getting to work on time, or keeping the fuel tank at least half full.

This weekend it looks like I'm totally on my own with no obligations. What should I do with my time? Activities, movies to watch, something?

I can't sleep, and failing to sleep just stresses me out, so don't suggest naps. Otherwise, srs and non-srs answers welcome.

Love

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How do you handle anxiety?

I'm currently in training for a job. Although it isn't my dream job, it is a job that will put my foot in the door and get my closer to the job I actually want. Overall, it isn't a particularly hard job. However, socializing is a large aspect of it and I have pretty severe social anxiety.

I want to do well. I haven't had a job in over 10 years. I need this.... but the anxiety over going gets so overwhelming that its all I can think about for days before I even need to go in.

I actually have to start getting ready within the next hour to head in, and all I've been doing is sitting here on the verge of tears.

I've tried exercising. Taking a hot shower. Eating comfort food. Watching a show. 

No matter what I'm doing, its all overshadowed by the thought of this job and me failing my training. Only half the people who train actually pass. I've been told by trainers that I am doing well, but it doesn't feel like I am.

Any tips you can give me? 

Only thing I can think of that helps ease my anxiety is alcohol, but getting drunk before work isn't really an option. lol