August 23rd, 2016
Sometimes I am afraid to leave the house because I know that I will see the sky, and I feel like I am falling up into it. As if I am clinging to the ceiling of the biggest possible room, and the floor is so far below me that I can't even see it.
I find it hard to walk across bridges, even if it's only a pedestrian bridge across a road.
It sucks, because I want to get trained as an electrician. However, "sparkies" tend to work up ladders, installing ceiling lights. Even plumbers sometimes have to install things like guttering and ducts, so no matter what trade I enter I am guaranteed to have to go to a high place at some point. On some days, I can sort of handle it. But on others, it's just too much for me to handle.
The weird thing is, I'm totally okay in aeroplanes. Elevators, too. And I can easily cross a bridge as long as I'm in a car or on the bus. I think small spaces make me feel safe. Which is odd, because I'm such a big guy.
I live in the UK. If anyone could signpost me towards some sort of support network, that would be cool.
TQC i feel like crap today. since i spent the entire weekend watching the Rio Olympics ....how likely is it i have teh ZIKA?
Can i get the day off for it? Will my Obama care pay for it?
What do you have in your office? On your desk?
dk;dc: what's for dinner tonight?
Did you settle into weird habits that didn't agree with the other person you lived with (i.e. Drinking out of the carton or leaving things out)?
EDIT: DK/DC/I never lived alone: will you sign my yearbook? I need to look back and remember myself being super popular.
I just found this out from my neighbor. They told me that the former owner's first husband shot himself in the head in the upstairs bedroom. In the three years that I have lived here I have never felt uncomfortable in any way up there. I just keep picturing what the event must have looked like and I find it upsetting. I was wondering how you guys might feel about this.
So, tqc, tell me Who were they? so I can relax about it.
Were they just here to spread the good word of Ticky?
The one at the door looked like a clean cut white guy, late teens to early twenties. I didn't get a good look at the other one. They both were wearing shorts, but I think they too long to rule out Mormons. JW are more likely here, but I've never seen them double back.
DK/DC. What's the weather like at the moment? Do you like it, or cannot wait for it to change?
My answers are in comments.