||[Jul. 21st, 2014|02:08 pm]
The Question Club
How do I make myself work out for the right reason? |
I have spent years of my life convinced that I was body positive and loved my body- then I finished grad school and walked into a pretty sedentary job. Suddenly, my activity level dropped. I was no longer walking to classes, going on walks with friends during free time, and my stress level decreased to nearly zero- which as increased my appetite drastically. This is in all honesty, amazing. I have a weird stomach disorder and I never thought I'd see the day when eating no longer gave me anxiety. But. Then I started to notice clothes fitting differently and before I knew it, I'd gained about 7 pounds.
This shouldn't be a big deal, but hot damn, is it. The body that I thought I loved suddenly feels almost foreign to me. Things that used to be flat are soft and while I in no way have a body that merits complaining about, I've been feeling a lot of self hate.
I want to start working out, but I want it to be because I need healthier lifestyle, not because I need to stay my college weight, but honestly, weight is really what's motivating me. How do I readjust this thinking and direct it away from my weight and towards my health?