||[Apr. 24th, 2014|11:09 pm]
The Question Club
So. I found out on Monday my sister is 3 months pregnant. She has 2 children already, her oldest turned 3 last month and her youngest is 21 months. I'm really happy for her, she wanted another baby and she fell pregnant on her first cycle of being off birth control. |
My best friend has been trying to get pregnant for 5 years. She found out yesterday (whilst I was with her) that it's finally happened! I actually cried a little bit when the test came back positive. I'm just so happy that after all the crying and heartbreak she finally got the little plus sign she's been waiting for.
I, on the other hand, have been ttc for almost 2 years with no luck. My doctor has told me it may never happen. I'm trying to come to terms with that and just enjoy my new marriage.
My mother phoned me tonight and all she talked about was my sister and friend being pregnant. I told her after half an hour of non-stop, one sided baby talk that I just needed some of not talking about babies. Which resulted in her calling me selfish, that I was horrible for not being excited for them and that I should be ashamed of myself.
How do I make her understand that I'm so happy and excited for both of them, but at the same time this is extremely hard for me? I want nothing more than my friends and family to be happy but that doesn't stop me being insanely jealous? Am I being selfish?