|Why does my brain do this to me?
||[May. 17th, 2013|08:32 pm]
The Question Club
I just failed a few tests. The tests were to determine if I would progress to an interview for a new job, with better money, and better prospects. I've pretty much just thrown it out the flippin' window.|
I had 4 coloured pens. The person doing the tests gave everyone simple instructions. First one was to put your name in the centre of the paper with a blue pen. At the time, I completely forgot where he told me to put my name... and I spelled my name wrong. My NAME. So I had to guess where to put my name... and I got it wrong. I couldn't distinguish what colour the pens were after a while, even though it was blatantly obvious. My brain couldn't process anything. It was a complete and utter mess. This is why I failed most of my GCSE's. My brain goes into meltdown. I had to put the numbers 1 to 10 across the page and couldn't remember that basic number sequence. The HELL!
Why does my brain do this to me? Everyone I spoke to was all "It's just a test, why are you nervous?"
Because I know my brain will turn to mush, that's why.
By the end I was having nervous tics, couldn't stop shaking, and came out in a red rash over my face chest and arms. I just end up getting so nervous about everything. Was it a panic attack? Panic attacks aren't good in tests so what can I do to overcome this?
I feel so embarrassed. Everyone else passed with full marks, except me! I feel so utterly stupid.