||[Mar. 27th, 2009|03:25 am]
The Question Club
Okay, first I need to give a little bit of background information:|
I'm a closet lesbian. I... uh, like this girl in my class. I don't think she likes me back, though. We're best friends, so it's a little complicated. We hang out a lot, I really, really like her but I don't know how she'd react if I told her. PLUS, my father is really homophobic and if I came out as a lesbian he would kill me. He's like... a dictator in our house. :|
I've had a few close calls, too! One time when I slept over at her house I started... uh, masturbating a little while she was in the shower and I was almost caught. Plus, I took naked pictures of her while she was sleeping and the next morning she started flipping through my phone. Thankfully, she didn't find them.
I'm getting pretty fucked in the head with all of this shit... I don't know what to do? Should I just keep masturbating to her pictures, knowing nothing with ever happen? Or should I kill myself...? Because I really can't live without her. She's my only love.
Please... serious answers only. I'm crying here.