||[Feb. 8th, 2006|05:17 pm]
The Question Club
So, here's the situation.
In the summer of 6th grade, I met this boy. We hit it off right away. There was just a connection there that I have yet to feel with anyone else. Fate kept putting us together in this odd situations and I think we were both thinking something along the lines of 'is this who I'm supposed to be with for the rest of my life?'. Anyhow, he moved, and I only saw him a few times after that.
He IMed me today asking for advice. I haven't seen him in four years, and I haven't really talked to him that much online. But it just amazed me that we'd grown up into the same person. Who we were in 7th grade is very different from who we are now as seniors, but I suppose that's true of everyone. But there's still that connection. He wanted to know what I thought of him moving to Arizona with an older friend, the 'older brother' type, getting a GED, and starting at a community college and eventually transferring somewhere. As opposed to staying at home with his crazy mother and graduating and being stuck with her for even longer.
We decided Arizona would be better for him. But here's the funny part. Earlier this year, I tried something similiar, only it was Colorado and I didn't have a friend to get me there, so it fell through. Now I am so amazingly tempted by this and I want to see if he and his olderbrother friend wouldn't mind me coming, too.
It's just-I don't know if it's better to stay or go. I have three very cool best friends here in Pennsylvania, but even combined, they could never match the connection I have with this kid moving to Arizona. I have a family who is very difficult but who supplies me with money. I'm two hours away from where my pop culture obsession(s) of the moment all live, which I know is silly, but that matters to me right now. I doubt it will later, but for now, it's nice.
I know I won't be amazingly unhappy if I don't leave and stay here, but what I'm not sure of is if I might miss out on what could be the best experience of my life. I think the concept of love is silly but...this guy is 'the one'. It's been nearly 7 years and I still have never dated after him, have never had an actual crush after him, have ALWAYS compared people to him. We get along so great and it's one of the few relationships I've ever had where everything is easy, and no one ever gets hurt unless we squabble over something silly.
It baisically boils down to this...
Should I risk throwing away my life for 'true love'? Or should I stick with what I have?
What would you do?