||[Oct. 19th, 2005|08:44 pm]
The Question Club
|||||Sore ga ai deshou BY shimokawa mikuni||]|
So let's say there's this guy you like. I mean, love. More than your life. You know it's not only "teenage loev" because you're kinda mature, and you've known this person for almost four years, and you try to make them even more happy than you would yourself.
But you seem to think that this guy is with you only because the girl he likes already has a boyfriend, and he feels like "Well, since she likes me that much I might as well just keep her".
Plus, you're not one of the most beautiful girls in the area/world, so you're sure he wouldn't even know you exist if you weren't his girlfriend already.
Do you think I'm crazy already... ? He thinks I am. We've been together for more than a year now. When we weren't together I'd think about him EVERY DAY. We would stop talking for months at a time (he's someone I met online; I met him in person.. mmm.. a year ago, but when we were online (most of the day) we would talk NON STOP)
He's got lots of pictures of this other girl, in a place he spends most of his time at, and one picture of me, kind of hidden. Well, I know, I'm ugly...
He says he wants this relationship with you to be really serious/commited, but may not act exactly as his words says. It breaks my heart, I think he's lying, but he says he's not, that'd he'd never lied to me or hurt me.
I'm not even that kind of a person who wants commitment, or atleast haven't been for most of my life. For that reason, I really woudln't care all that much if he didn't want us to be so commited.
It just annoys me SO MUCH that he thinks he has to say nice things to me, or prettend he wants to me with me all the time, or say I'm great, or any of that kinda things...
It just hurts me that he's not honnest with me, because apparently it's a value both of us appreciate.
...So. I've wanted to break up with him since March or so. Yes, I do love him, and that's why I stick around.
I don't know what to do, I don't even know what I'm asking here.
Anyone has any comments..? Please..?