|I don't know what to do.
||[Sep. 27th, 2005|02:58 pm]
The Question Club
I'm going to college, and I am so lonely. I live off campus (I'm almost 26, I didn't want to have to worry about being with some kid in a dorm) and I am not meeting people in class. I've gone to a few groups that interest me, but the one meets when I have a night class (and it's the LBGTAU group, which SUCKS) and there have been a few other things I have or will be going to, but it seems to do no good.
I'm taking a chem class that has me HORRIBLY anxious, because I don't get math, and there is a LOT of math. If it was just concepts, that would be okay, but no...I didn't turn in my homework this week because I looked at it and just felt like crying. I'm already in therapy for depression (which has come back full force) but not anxiety, and I'm hoping to talk to the prof tomorrow, she at least seems decent.
Also, I'm super depressed because the guy I'm seeing--I don't know if he loves me or not. His actions are certainly pointing in that direction, but I'm afraid to say something because the last time I told him that I loved him (about six months ago) and it wasn't well recieved (because of the timing, and I realize this). He wants me to speak up during sex, and normally I'd have no trouble with this, but lately, I've been afraid to speak because I don't want to blurt out something that might be a not-so-great idea...
I'm a mess. I thought things would get better living on my own and going to college again. They only seem worse. What do I do?