February 19th, 2005

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I have a really good friend who I am in love with and I'm not sure what to do. He really cares for me and he's an awesome friend. We were making out and he was practically treating me like a girlfriend, but very clear that he didn't think we were compatible dating wise and that he didn't want to date me. Then, he decided that we really shouldn't make out any more just cuddle and he's been much more friend like to me and clear that he doesn't want to be my boyfriend lately. It just kills me. I can't be around him without wanting to constantly touch him and kiss him. He's everything I'm looking for. And he says stuff thats so painful like "I really want to be in a relationship since I met you. But I just don't want to be in one with you". I feel so rejected. I've had a lot of problems in the past with rejection issues, trust issues and I get hurt really easily. The last boyfriend took me FOREVER to get over. I DON'T want to feel that much in pain ever again. I need to get over this guy. But I don't know how. It's so painful to feel like I've met someone who seems so perfect for me and who cares for me so much and is physically attracted to me, and yet he is clear that he doesn't want to date me. I feel like I just need to cut off all contact with him for a couple months or so. That would hurt him a lot and it would be extremely painfully hard for me to do. I really don't want to lose his friendship because he means a lot to me and I'm afraid if I did this, I would. Yet, I think I would just die if he started dating someone else or feeling the way I feel about him about someone else. I don't want it to get to that point and feel absolutely miserable and not get to see him because he'll be spending time with her. I don't know what else to do though. I feel so strongly for him. It's really hard for me to not call him or talk to him. It's like being high on drugs.

What should I do? How can I get over him? Should I try to cut off contact?

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what songs pop into your head for no good reason the most?

For some reason "I Don't Want To Wait" (Dawson's Creek song) and "Isn't It Good, Isn't It Grand" from the movie Chicago plays in my mind several times a day.

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Does anyone else experience seasonal change?

I feel spring coming, it starts off with being able to smell farms, which I assume is a physiological response from experiences in my childhood being related to spring, I can sense a strange dejavu that makes me feel euphoric, this is before the visible signs of spring come through, before the daffodils come through or the weather starts to clear up, I can just smell it coming. I guess it’s more so with spring than any other season because after winter it is a relief, love is in the air, the warm weather is coming and so on.
Die kitty

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Dandruff, most of us have it whether we want to admit it or not, so I want to know how do you keep it at bay? Or - if by some miracle - how do you get rid of it?
What has worked best for you?

For me, the best thing is to shave my head, I have very thick hair and the only way to clear it best is to give it some air, but the only way for it to have enough is for it to be gone... lol.

boring-ass banking question

It probably depends on the bank/CU, but--If I already have a savings account in my name, and I want to have a joint checking account with another person instead, can I have the savings account "converted" to a new checking account, or do I have to close the savings acct. and get a whole new one?
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I bought a shower radio a month ago and it's the best purchase I've made in awhile. As soon as I get home from work in the morning, I get in my shower, turn up the radio, and sing and dance like I'm on American Idol or something, lol. Does anyone else sing in the shower?
Fart cloud

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Ok. I'm looking for a cherry bathing suit. Only thing is it has to be plus sized. I've seen TONS of cute size 4 bathing suits with cherries on them but NO plus size ones. Can anyone recommend me a website to look for plus size bathing suits? (Other than Lane Bryant, Fashion Bug, and Torrid)
cherry trees

Sims question


I just reinstalled the Sims on my new computer, and realized that one of my favorite gadgets disappeared when my old computer died. It was a modified shower booth that could make anyone in the neighborhood appear, whenever you wanted -- you just clicked on it and selected the character, and they stumbled out a few seconds later. It was WAY easier than trying to make friends with just the phone. It might have been called a "transmogrifier" or "transporter."

Does anyone know what I'm talking about ansd where I could download it? Google is giving me nothing.


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my room mate and i really want to learn how to play the piano. we decided we would both buy keyboards and a good teaching video/dvd and really work hard to teach ourselves. i guess my question is, do you think this is possible? we're not expecting to be overnight Beethovens, but just want to develop a good understanding for it. has anyone else ever taught him/herself how to play an instrument, and if so, how successful were you?

thanks ahead.
Me--State Fair


I have a school email account that is due to expire in a week.  I want to somehow save all of my sent emails, and all the emails in a folder.  Is there an eaisier way to do this besides forwarding them?  It uses Outlook Webmail, is there a way to do this?

my favorite place in the world


It scares me a bit how much I've been eatting lately (as in the last 1.5-2 weeks). I seriously need to eat a meal every 4 hours (breakfast at 7, lunch at 11, after school at 3:30-4, and dinner at 7). I mean, it's not like a snack or something, I need to eat a lot. If I don't (like today when I didn't eat from 11-6), I get faint and my head starts to hurt like I haven't eatten in a really, really long time, not just a few hours. Is this normal?
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What do you think about plastic surgery? Would you ever get it done, where and why?

Why in the world are Reese's peanut butter cups so addicting??? Especially the eggs that come out around easter time.

Am I the only one that has trouble getting to sleep when their SO isn't in the room???

How's your weather?
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I'm looking for a new background image for my journal. I would also like to find a new friends only banner. I love colorbars, (basically the rainbow effect). I've searched through alot of places but still no luck. Can anyone help me with this?
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