||[Feb. 19th, 2005|12:23 am]
The Question Club
I have a really good friend who I am in love with and I'm not sure what to do. He really cares for me and he's an awesome friend. We were making out and he was practically treating me like a girlfriend, but very clear that he didn't think we were compatible dating wise and that he didn't want to date me. Then, he decided that we really shouldn't make out any more just cuddle and he's been much more friend like to me and clear that he doesn't want to be my boyfriend lately. It just kills me. I can't be around him without wanting to constantly touch him and kiss him. He's everything I'm looking for. And he says stuff thats so painful like "I really want to be in a relationship since I met you. But I just don't want to be in one with you". I feel so rejected. I've had a lot of problems in the past with rejection issues, trust issues and I get hurt really easily. The last boyfriend took me FOREVER to get over. I DON'T want to feel that much in pain ever again. I need to get over this guy. But I don't know how. It's so painful to feel like I've met someone who seems so perfect for me and who cares for me so much and is physically attracted to me, and yet he is clear that he doesn't want to date me. I feel like I just need to cut off all contact with him for a couple months or so. That would hurt him a lot and it would be extremely painfully hard for me to do. I really don't want to lose his friendship because he means a lot to me and I'm afraid if I did this, I would. Yet, I think I would just die if he started dating someone else or feeling the way I feel about him about someone else. I don't want it to get to that point and feel absolutely miserable and not get to see him because he'll be spending time with her. I don't know what else to do though. I feel so strongly for him. It's really hard for me to not call him or talk to him. It's like being high on drugs. |
What should I do? How can I get over him? Should I try to cut off contact?