||[Jun. 19th, 2003|09:27 am]
The Question Club
Last Christmas I promised my parents that I would quit smoking. That was their Christmas present.
Since then, I have assured them over and over that I have quit with only the occasional slip-up.
That is a bold-faced lie which I feel REALLY bad for telling in the first place.
But today is my first day of really trying to quit. But I have come to realize that I really don't want to quit. I LOVE smoking. I LOVE the way it makes me feel. I LOVE the ritual. I LOVE my Camel Lights.
Barring all of that crap about how unhealthy it is for you (trust me, I already know how bad it is for me, so please spare me the lectures... :), should I quit? Is it even worth me trying to quit? Am I being selfish here? Am I even going to be able to quit, seeing as deep down I don't really WANT to?