||[May. 7th, 2003|11:36 pm]
The Question Club
If you could go back and talk to yourself say 10yrs earlier(meaning be the person you are now talking to yourself from back then-what would you say) |
and this age range isnt a specific number, you could talk to yourself from 20yrs back or whatnot.
I got this idea for a question from tonites Dawsons Creek episode by the way
10yrs ago I was 16 and I think i'd say
There is so much I would do differently if i could go back, knowing what I know now. I wouldnt care what peole thought of me, I wouldnt be afraid of looking stupid or being judged I wouldnt go to HS every day feeling that if I did one wrong thing or didnt dress the right way or behave the right way i'd lose my friends or people would gossip--because those things will happen no matter what. It took me a long time to realize that it didnt matter that I iddnt have the best, most expensive clothes or that I wasnt the most popular or that yeah I sometimes made mistakes or did embarrasing things but in the end none of that mattered because my friends stood by me no matter what.
When I think back to HS I had some days when I would coem home crying, It wasnt all a happy time, there was a group of girls who hated me, I had boys tell me I was pretty then laugh and say "just kididng you're too ugly to ever date"
those same teenage boys hit on me and flirted with me at my 5yr Reunion, oen of those girls that was once my sworn enemy is one of my friends now. People change, times change. We all become diff people, the people you are at 15 or 16 or 20 are not who you will be for life. Friends will grow apart. when I was 14 or 16 or even 18 I thought i'd be close to my friends for life, most of them I havent talked to in years. You learn to stop worrying over little things, but a part of you wishes you still had those littel worries. I wish my biggest worry was whether or not my hair would look good or whether i'd find a date for prom. Now I worry about paying my bills, about finsishing school about what's going to happen in the future.
When I look back on those days in HS or even Jr High I remember the bad because they were part of me. Even today when I walk by a crowd of teenagers I'm instantly reminded of HS and now it felt to either have that great feeling of being with your friends and being accepted or that feeling of alienation of feeling that everyone was watching you and judging you. Those bad times were part of the whole experienfe but i've learned to let them go, I dont hold grudges and I dont have any regrets--my classmates and I are all in our mid twenties now, we're not the same people and we never will be. We've grown and changed in ways we never could haev imagined and now when I think back to those years I dont really think about the bad stuff, instead I remember all the good times.