Chelsea (seaponies) wrote in thequestionclub,
Chelsea
seaponies
thequestionclub

So, I am at CCY for this art program camp thing for 5 weeks. It's only the first week and I want to go. I'm not homesick but I'm just not feeling this place. They make us interact with each other like 24/7 and I do like talking to people but not constantly. Also, I am just not that passionate about art yet. I can't do it all day. Another thing that bothers me is that I have no technical skills. They can't really teach them here because we're suppose to already know them and I don't. I do like art but I don't know if I should leave. This is a great thing for me but I'm just not happy. I am not that driven and I don't love art that much. I love making it on my own time and I like making things I want to make without being graded. Plus my roommates kind of ignore me and that pisses me off greatly and I want to just hang out in my room and read sometimes but I can't.

Should I leave? My mom says I can tomorrow and I probably will but I don't know if I should. It makes me look like I'm homesick and a wimp but I just don't feel ready yet. I would like to go to art school one day but when I'm ready and feel like I can take things on. This program should help me but I just feel bad not knowing simple shit like working with charcoal.
Subscribe
  • Post a new comment

    Error

    Comments allowed for members only

    Anonymous comments are disabled in this journal

    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

  • 9 comments