Have you ever persisted in a behavior, after you know it's the wrong thing to do, that you are acting crazy, and you feel ashamed, but you just feel like you can't stop or get a grip or grounding?
I just gave a lady representing my loan service a hard and irrational time. The problem wasn't even something that was a big deal in the overall scheme of things. I think it became a scapegoat for other things, but that still doesn't explain or excuse my becoming so intolerant and a bit unhinged about it all. It doesn't change anything and just makes me look like a fool.