For a while now I've wanted a kitten. The first one I got was a little black female whom I loved and cherished and called her Rhapsody. But when I took her to the vet, I found out that she had FIV and only had a year or so to live. So I sadly gave her back to the pet store where I got her. It's been a few months now, I still want a kitten but I don't know if I'm ready. I'll go the shelter/pet store and see a kitten I like and want to buy it, but when I'm at home and think about having a kitten right next to me I don't feel like I'm ready and that I'm still grieving over Rhapsody. How will I know when I'm REALLY ready?