Well, I just got my heart broken last Friday night. I was the one who spoke the words, but he was the one to let me know that he didn't want to be in the relationship anymore. And ever since I've been hurting. This is seriously the worst thing I've ever had to endure and for most of Saturday and Sunday I didn't even want to know if I wanted to survive this crap. Obviously in retrospect that's bullshit, but still. I'm on the road to recovery, but mornings are hard. I feel like I don't even have a reason to get up in the morning. I cut off pretty much all of my friends when I was in the relationship before this one and immediately started dating this now-ex, and never cared enough to build a life for myself. I haven't been on my own in four years and this scares me.
How the fuck do you get over it? How do you start having a worthwhile when you're starting from zero?
In a text on Monday after the breakup he told me he just didn't love me anymore. I just can't believe that. He just got out of a serious 20-year relationship when we started dating and was expecting a never-ending being in love feeling. I just can't stop believing that it could have worked out had we communicated more.
How do I stop this feeling? Am I wrong?
He also told me on Monday that I should stop torturing him with my questions because he just doesn't want to have to think about. I feel this overwhelming urge to let him know that he NEEDS to think about this. I didn't want to have to think about it either, what the hell. But I had to. And it gets better after a while. I want him to know that. I want him to know that he needs to get better. I think he's just in denial, and that certainly makes for a crap future.
It's a bad idea to tell him that, y/y?
Have you ever managed to be friends with an ex? Right now that's what I want to work towards. He's so important to me.
Sorry this is so rant-y, but I don't know what to do with myself:(