I've suffered from depression for as long as I can remember. Since Wednesday I've had two break downs. I'm talking full out laying on the floor crying and screaming like a small child. Not wanting to be alive anymore. My Doctor recently changed my meds (she upped the dose). I called her Wednesday and she said to go back to how I was taking it. Four days later (today) I had another break down. I'm shakey, I'm angry, I'm sad... I feel like I'm going mad. I called the Dr's nurse and... doctor isn't in. She said she will call her and let her know about how I'm feeling. No other doctor in the office has an opening.
To top everything off I have a migraine. So, between uncontrolable bursts of emotions I'm vomiting and in a horrible amount of pain. I don't know what to do besides sit here and wait for the nurse to call me back... and most likely be less than helpful.
A part of me wants to go to the hospital because... I can't take it anymore. However, I'm terrified.
What would you do?
Have you ever admitted yourself for depression?