Not particularly with Christmas, but definitely on NYE. I feel like a loser because I don't have friends to hang out with.
Yeah, I wouldn't say depressed but on NYE I definitely feel lame because I don't do anything super social/go to some big event. I usually just celebrate with family.
Not generally. My family is kind of tumultuous but unlike some families, the holidays seem to be the one time of year they pull it together. But not this year. My brother was spewing verbal abuse and serious emotional manipulation on everyone (through texts; he didn't bother to show up). Christmas was effectively ruined and heartbreaking on multiple levels, but this year we're not allowed to be sad about a ~bad day~ today because you should be uber thankful if your kids don't live in Newtown. And I am. But I still can't help being sadfaced. My daughter's first Christmas, too. Not that anyone else noticed/remembered...
lots of people. I am usually ok.
Yup. Lexapro's been my best friend this time of the year.
Sort of. The novelty of Christmas wore off a bit now that I've gotten older and moved away from my family. I went to visit a few days ago. My view of the world changed a lot and I was dumbfounded to see how my family members are the same as everyone else. I realized that they're older than they were every other Christmas, and that the more Christmases go by, the closer I am to losing all of them. I've lost some family members, so it's getting harder to celebrate knowing that they're gone. Now I'm realizing how generous they are and how much money they spend making every Christmas a good one, even though they really shouldn't be spending money right now.
The long drive home gave me too much time to think. I cried so much. I guess it means I'm starting to realize how much I love my family and that I should probably drive down to see them more often.
2012-12-26 03:32 am (UTC)
yup yup yup. like clockwork.
After Christmas is over, I get a little bit depressed because there's not much to look forward to for a while but usually I only get stressed out or annoyed beforehand.
yes. i just want to get family time over with. and new years depresses me because i know i'll get older. and i was never one for big parties like people do for NYE so i wouldn't do anything even if i liked new years.
I get so depressed about being depressed that I don't even bother anymore.
this is the first time in years i haven't felt like dying. i'm sure it's because i'm on meds now.
lots and lots of people. I don't know if anyone on TQC is a member of The Listserve (its a listserv by NYU where one person gets selected each day via lottery to send an email out to everyone, so "if you could tell everybody just one thing..."), someone recently sent out a story about the history of her depression and one thing she said that struck me as honest and compelling was that hearing the words "you deserve to be happy" was frustrating and that if she were going to modify it herself, she would say "you deserve to be happy, but you don't have to be happy today, or tomorrow, or the next day. It's okay to not be happy yet..." that's not a direct quote, paraphrasing there, but you get the idea.
Anyway, it's really hard to find people who can say something new about depression and that was the first time I ever saw that.
I've been amazingly depressed this Christmas. It has been really bizarre. I just don't know what has come over me but it sucks big time and I wish it would stop.
Not super depressed but im getting there. I moved to NYC a couple years ago, I didnt make many new friends since and every year less of my old friends text/ call me to greet me and thats depressing. And the bad weather, and no more xmas dinners even if i do go home since my mom and stepdad have split.
I really dont like xmas/holiday time. Last year I was robbed that was depressing. Im always late w gifts which is stressful. and when i was a kid my pockets were slashed and i lost all my xmas money.
I get very nostalgic, but not really depressed or (too) sad.
My mom. Her first husband died around this time 25 years ago and she isn't very enthusiastic during the holidays