||[Nov. 21st, 2012|01:23 am]
hi, what are you?|
A very disappointed human being.
(sorry for the late reply)
My mother's on drugs again and I wish I never let her convince me to come here back when I found out I was pregnant (I lived in Germany with his father, and she wanted me to come "home", to the US, when she found out. Now I have a 3-month son old who could have everything he needs by now if I' would've just stayed put. But she insisted that I come back to her, promised me the world for this kid, and I was dumb enough to believe it. She's now going back to her abusive husband who she promised to never get back with, and since I found out I was pregnant, I told her I built a life over there already and the last thing I would ever do is bring a baby into his house.
I'm disappointed in her and myself...both for being fucking stupid in our own ways.
i've been procrastining at getting back to people and now.... months have passed. And possibly a year in some people's cases and I actually like and LOVE these people. Don't know wtf is wrong with me. Part of it has to do with my utter loathing of talking on th ephone, but really, when it comes to people you care about, this is no excuse =(
I'm the same to be honest, I hate talking on the phone. But even the other day I realised I was putting off facebook messaging people i love and care about. I worry about myself sometimes!
We might be the same person, lol.
I very much appreciate this response
This word has made its way into my vocabulary way too fast.
2012-11-21 08:17 am (UTC)
resentful and upset.
for real, I'm sentimental and sleepless.
A traumatized shell of a woman after watching the movie 'The Girl Next Door.'
now I've got to go to YouTube
A beautiful sandwich. Oh man I'm talkin, hey.
I'm sick, but I'm pretty. I'm sad, but I'm laughin'. I'm tired, but I'm workin' yeahhhh. Blah blah some of that shit.